Yeah…I’m gonna vent. It’s angry…it’s negative…feel free to ignore.
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Yesterday was a crap day. And I’m angry. I’ve been angry for a while now. Because I’m tired. I’m tired of a lot of things. I’m tired of being punished for having a work ethic. By punished, I mean that I’m really tired of having a different set of expectations put on me because I actually work hard and do what I’m asked…while the slackers with no work ethic are allowed to slide by doing the bare minimum. I’m tired of being treated differently. I’m tired of being singled out in negative ways. I don’t mind standing out in a crowd because I’ve done something well…but it sucks when that is taken for granted and it becomes what you’re EXPECTED to do when others don’t have as much expected of them.
I’m tired of know it all jackasses trying to tell me what to do or how to do it, especially when they have half the experience that I have…and no authority over me whatsoever…and last but certainly not least…WERE NOT ASKED FOR THEIR OPINION.
I’m tired of watching people get HANDED all the things I worked my ass off to get because they don’t want to have to work for it. So they whine and cry and “poor me” and make people feel sorry for them and get handed things instead of having to earn them. They get to work half-ass, part time jobs and then play the rest of the time…while I work my ass off for everything I have.
I’m tired of cry baby, whiny assed, entitled people who don’t appreciate anything they have and want everything handed to them. I’m sick of people complaining constantly about tiny inconveniences when there are people in the world with ACTUAL problems. I’m ready for these people to get over themselves and realize that if they want something, they should go work for it…not cry and stomp their feet until someone gives it to them.
I’m tired of being involved with a group where not everyone is treated the same although it’s claimed that they are all equal. I’m tired of some people getting to do things that others don’t and lame ass excuses are made as to why.
I’m sick of being patronized and spoken to as if I’m an idiot or somehow a lesser human being. Particularly by people who have a tiny bit of power and let it go to their head.
More than any of this…I’m tired of being angry and disappointed. I’m tired of watching people get away with acting like idiots so that I get angry. I’m tired of being disappointed by people’s actions and poor behavior. It’s just exhausting.
I am trying really hard to let things go. I keep chanting “Not my circus, not my monkeys” so much that it feels like it’s permanently etched in my brain. But it’s just frustrating. I don’t want to be angry anymore. I’m trying to figure out what to do. I’m trying to figure out how to fix it. At some point, hopefully I’ll be able to make some changes and things will be better. Until then, I just have to keep trying. But I am just SO tired.
